If you were with me tonight...

What a cool weekend?
Last period on Friday Gem said she would drive me home and I invited JJ round. So he came over on the spur of the moment, neglecting to tell his or my parents about the arrangement. It worked out alright though, and we just chatted had a few drinks and watched Team America World police (on pirate), which kept us laughing until we dropped him home. I highly recommend this very funny/bizarre film to everyone, its great!
Saturday- I spent at the village hall doing 'the thing', its real hard to explain (and embarrassing so I'll let you guess) Anyhoo, I got a txt from Emma in the evening wanting to do something. So after a few texts and phone call the two of us decided to go over to JJ's house. Where we had a bloody good time. We drank, watched BasketBall, drank, played cards, and drank some more. Shortly before we were supposed to be picked up we decided to spend the night so after more phone calls we were set crash at JJ's. Not long after, the three of us were outside having a wicked snowball fight in the dark. You really have to try it, its soooooo much fun! We then went back inside to watched Team America again.
The three of us crashed on a pull out sofa in his living room, it was 'cozy' to say the least!
Sunday- Was a little more sedate, after breakfast, JJ's dad ran me and Emma home. I went o help down the village hall until about 3, and spent the rest of the day trying to fix the mass of problems my brother has caused to our computers. I spent the evening thinking bout 'stuff' and quickly doing my chemistry homewok (Cut & Paste).

Today has been pretty mundane, nothing to interesting happened. I'm going climbing tonight which I'm really looking forward to, and its the Jimmy Eat World concert in 13 days, it should be great.

Ta-rah

Hey girl, get on the dancefloor...

Phrase for the day... Fuck Yeah!

Well today has been a lot better than i thought it was going to be this morning. We had this daft 'Further Education' day. Which meant that I missed all my lessons, but it also meant that i missed 4 of my free periods that I had planned to catch up with homework in.
The day went well though, I learnt lots of stuff about going uni, and some new stuff about the RAF. I'v started to consider whether I should take a gap year before uni? Ah well got some thinking to do.
The big news of the day though came at the beggining of lunch. Adam burst into the room yelling "we we've got it". 'It' refers to the Shackleton Award. Its awarded to squadrons that organise exceptional adventure training expeditions. We have been awarded the trophy for our expeedition to Canada and the conservation work we took part in out there. So to celbrate me Adam and JJ headed down the pub for a quick drink during our lunch break. I can't wait for the presentaion evening now!

I have to go I have a driving lesson soon.

Its very very nice, but smells of shit...

I got back from the Peak District this evening, I've been gone since Friday. I had a fantastic time, I missed being up in the hills so much. It great to be away and have no cares about anything back home or school.
The bus journey up on Friday night was fun, as all cadet bus journeys are. We had Jimmy Eat World blaring out or knakered speakers, while we cracked jokes, told stories and played some of Jimmy's great mind games.
Saturday started of well, I was up at 6:30 after only about three hours sleep, and prepared for the day by preparing an oversized bacon and egg butty washed down with a cup 'o char'. We headed out onto the hills after a short bus journey to the base of Mam Tor, one ontop of the ridge we were buffeted by feirce -6ºC winds. All though the day was a little bit nippy the weather was fantastic, barely a cloud in the sky. We walked about 18km which isn't a bad stint, since were all taking turns in leading exercises. We had some great laughs up in the Hills, not mentioning Mike striping down to a T-shirt in freezing winds and belly diving through a huge puddle of mud!! After returning to the camping barn we cleaned up, played cards and had a brief for the next day. Then followed fantastic fish and chips, of which I managed to eat 4 portions of chips and 1½ pieces of cod!!
The next morning was started the same way, before heading of on our search and rescue objective. I had charge over the beginner group with Cpl Stokes (Emma) as my 2IC. With some encouragement we got the group to our search point after recovering the downed pilot (Dan) we headed back to the buses. Before we left though JJ had the fantastic idea to slide down a ice over hill on his backside. It was very amusing to say the least.
We arrived back at Thurston about 4:30 Sunday evening. As soon as I got back to Thurston though the high spirits soon left and once I got home I was thoroughly pissed of, partly due to tiredness and because of the ton of homework in for next week.

Well it was another brilliant weekend and I'll publish some photos and the film of Mike, when Roland gives them to me.

The blogging phenomenon!

I have noticed a growing trend in the popularity of blogs and blogging. Since I started blogging about 2 months ago, after being introduced by Alex, many of my friends, and there friends friends have started up blogs. I now find that I have another perspective of my mates. I can read into there lives and feelings aswell as be told.

Its cool!!

Going nowhere in the fake yellow light...

...We left behind the busy crowd.
So it seems we slow down.
Meet me with a way out through the lies...


Ok I haven't blogged for a few days so I suppose I should let you guys catch up. This blog will/should be on a much cheerier note than my last.
Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday have been bizarre, I have been helping with the decorating and DIY of my house. The odd thing is its my dad whose doing it, taking that I hadn't spoken to him for 2 years in October. Its gone quite well though, no bust ups between him and my mum or with my brother. I haven't really said anything about it I just find it strange.
Monday night was Grandad, sorry Marc's 18th, and he has joined the elite of people like Michael Jackson and that Huntley chap. Grandad, I'm really sorry Marc left his 18th celebration bash in the Vic at 10:30 while we carried on for another hour.
Wednesday was a bit different as Emma asked if I could help her walk Tom Twaites' dogs with her. So at 10:00 I climbed on my bike and cycled to Ixworth. I was surprised how unfit I am! So it looks like Adam isn't going to be the only person starting a new fitness routine. It was nice to get out of the house, have a bimble and a chat. I headed of home 2 hours later with a cup of tea giving me the energy to (ehem) walk back up the hill to Troston. Arriving back at the mad house I was soon doing more DIY, putting on skirting board playing with phone lines. fun.

I planned Wednesday evening to have a group of mates over for 'gathering'. At about 6:30 JJ arrived after a driving lesson shortly followed by Will. Adam and Emma arrive at about 8:00 with another friend Dan with his girlfriend. So we had a livingroom full. I had invited Grandad but he was 'too busy with work'. (I'm sorry that was supposed to be Marc) We drunk, laughed, talked, strumbed, cooked and ate the night away. At about 9:00 Adam receive a phone call from 'Craig' who we promptly met down my local. We had another drink and a couple of games of 'ShitHead' the fantastic game that it is. After a pint and several rounds of cards we slowly made our way back to my house. For more music, drinking and pizza! By 11:00 everyone apart from, my good mates, JJ and Will, we continued to talk and eat until 3:00am before we went to to sleep.
In the morning after a few rounds of Halo on the Xbox we caught the rarest of thing, a bus, in Troston, heading to that distant place of Bury St Edmunds. Once there I spent more money this time on things to go to the Peaks rather than just booze. I started of on Monday morning with well over £150 in my bank. On with drawing more money today I discover the amount was dwindling at the £25 mark! Oh Well God bless EMA! After having lunch at Pizza Hut, that fabulous place made from the crust of a deep pan. Between us I think we polished of around 30 slices discounting, garlic bread and that useless green stuff 'salad'. Did you know that you use more energy digesting celery than you get from it.
We braved the cold and left Pizza Hut, on a voyage... of wasting time. Just waiting for JJ to catch a bus home. As me and Will walked to his Taxi, (sorry Mrs points) we passed that fine specimen of a maths student... cor!


...Nowhere, going nowhere in the fake yellow light.
The feelings change so fast.
Safety scares them away...


Well I said that I would blog about the 'weirdness' of my life recently and I will.

- My Dad being over, its just strange cause I haven't really spoken to him and he was here 3 days in a row.
- ATC is crossing over into my life more than ever before, in inviting people over I realized 90% of my mates are cadets. Even at school cadets is always slipped into conversations.
- People at cadets are becoming mates and getting with people I like at school, who are not cadets. So the friends that aren't cadets are still being tied in.
- My mum thinks I should get with Emma, almost everyday she makes a come, or tells a member of my family or a friend how nice she is, she can't get it into her head about JJ and everything else. (maybe a less revised version of Jann 3000, perhaps Jane 3.1)


...I can't bring myself to say it's my own advice I need.
Nowhere and then nowhere.
Living trapped inside the chase...


Well life is pretty good at the moment even if not a little odd, I hardly think about Kay anymore and I'm really looking to move on, need to get some confidence lol.


...Our weakness is the same.
We need poison sometimes.
So take another drink with me...


This has been a massive blog and I'm really sorry cause its probably all shit, but this week has been so different but so good. (My poor old liver). I got home from the pub after cadets and hour and a half ago. It was chilled just 5 of us quietly chatting.
Right I've written too much and I'll stop, thanks for reading, you must have used a packet of ProPlus to get this far.


...Blame no one.
Look in my eyes and blame no one

The smoke has clouded your eyes...

Well isn't this great. I'm sitting hear on my lone-some. With valentines day quickly approaching, only 21 minutes left. I had Will over today to watch the Rugby, which we lost but it was nice to chat with a mate. On the way home form dropping him off my mum asked me in the car, If I had sent any card and I said no, and she asked if I was going to receive any and I laughed and said no. And I've been thinking, I'm 17 and never sent or received a valentines card, the day for the valentine has always been a depressing one. I don't mean just for me, but all those single boys and girls around the country. I know at this precise moment Alex is snuggled up in bed with Ash, going to wake up with her in the morning. It just makes you think about the things you, haven't got, the things you've lost and the things you want. I read JJ's latest blog and I can see exactly where he's coming from. I need to find that special someone, but then don't we all?

While I've been writing this Hovells just published his latest blog and it somes up what I've been saying. 'things were so much better when we were young'uns' and its true, no care just fun loving life. Shouldn't we all try to live like that rather than get bogged down in the reality of life??

Most people I have spoken to recently aren't truly happy, little things are niggling people and its quite bad for some, Em's having a rough time of it. So while you all enjoy valentines day spare a thought for the rest of us, working hard to keep our lives on tracks and ourselves in healthy frames of mind.

Well happy Valentines day?

The young man struggles on...

Well I was going to blog, but I have to pick up Emma.
Blog Later...

Ok I'm back now, I apologies for not continuing until today but I didn't get home until late last night. It was a really pleasant evening, I drove to pick Emma up and then headed for JJ's house in Thelnetham. We got there in about 20 minutes, then realised that we hadn't got a clue where his house was, so we spent another 30 minutes driving around winding country roads looking for anywhere that was remotely familiar. After several phone calls we got through to James and eventually succeeded in finding his house. The 3 of us just spent the evening drinking, chatting, playing cards and listening to music. It was a really good evening, and something different from just going down the pub.
What am I doing today? Well Will's coming over later to watch the rugby, which is different, I haven't done anything but gliding on weekends. I have to check if I have everything for the weekend, I really can't wait until Friday, it should be a great weekend even if it does rain everyday. Hopefully we'll see some snow up in the hills!

You can see a million miles tonight, but you can't get very far.....

Is this the real life, is this just fantasy...? I need an opening line and what better the Bohemian Rapsody! Its ages since I've let Queen, excrete from my speakers.
Anyhoo... My mother read a blog Alex had written, and became very quizzical about my blog, wanting to know what I'd written about her, and if I hadn't written about her why not. So I spent several minutes trying to explain that parents are not a high on teenagers conversation topics (unless of course we're complaining about them) Theres a gorgeous smell of sweet and sour stir fry rising from the kitchen, and I'm getting rather hungry, lol no surprise there actually. I've never know myself to eat as much as I do in 6th form, very bizarre, think it has something to do with the boredom.
An interesting point was brought up at breaktime today by the little hobbit, who goes by the name of Adam. "Where are all the nice girls?" and it seems there are very few of them around. I have been pondering this thought and there appear to be very small odds on finding one. They are all taken by better guys, or like better guys... so what can we do about it? I don't really know just wait and see I suppose, I can't be bothered getting down about it, there are far more interesting ventures to be had. And large amounts of alcohol to be consumed.

The title of this blog reminds me of one of my most treasured memories from Canada, and I would say Marcs aswell. Six of us at set of at about 11:00pm, two people in each canoe, we paddled across lake Provoking in to a large outlet on the western edge of the lake, we rafted up and turned all our torches of, lied back and just watched the stars. We stayed like that for about 20 minutes, it was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen, there are few places in the UK that you can find such stillness and silence. After giving up on counting the shooting stars we headed further into the outlet, where me and Marc performed the most perfect bow cut! Canoes are the most fantastic form of transport, just gliding silently and effortlessly through the water. Magic!


Lake Provoking

This blog is going on forever!

Talking about Canada, I found out the Clairey has some friends living in Toronto so we've decided to go out there for our summer hols. hehe. I've spent most of the day with Claire actually, we did chemistry together again. Shes great to work with, much better than me. Cheers Clairey luv ya!

OK. I've written loads and its all tripe, but hey I haven't done any physics homework :-)

I guess I should...

I've just got in and I'm pissed of. I'm fed up of the younger cadets acting like children. I've worked in a primary school and those kids were better behaved than the rabble I had to control tonight!
I'm trying to chill out with some cool music. Todays not been all bad, I got presented my wings which was nice, as only two other people on the squadron knew that I had got them, I received a big well done from everyone else.
School...well I was pleased because I scrapped a pass in my physics test, and improved my maths grade (not past a pass though) I'm so failing maths, but I'm going to stick at it, I don't give up easy!
At lunch today I felt very distant, thats a weird expression, but I sat at the window and just watched the world pass by, every now and again, I was asked by someone unsatisfied with the music selection to change the track, but everytime I just rolled back into my corner. Gemma was looking very down, sitting against the wall away from the mass of people that seem to always converge each lunch time, after their expedition to the shop. They always bring an unwanted noise to the room. Alex and Ash were getting carried away in lip locking action, only breaking for air or to ask for a track change. I turned my gaze out of the window onto a fantastic day, not a cloud in the sky, 'Typical' I could have flow a proper solo in this weather. Thats my luck!
Well I have a history test tomorrow, and I know I'll fail, I don't even understand the question.

Well time to chill...

World, push the button...

One word for today...Fantastic! I got my silver wings today! Unfortunately the cloud base was too low so I had to do a ghost solo but none the less I've got my solo wings! I'm so tired, I've done about 20 launches this weekend! That's a lot of flying! I'm really going to miss everyone at 611 VGS, we've had some great laughs. I'll miss the banter at meal times, the micky taking, ragging around in rovers, and of course the flying.
Sniff with a smile.
However I'm not going to miss getting up at 7:00am every weekend!
'Push the Button' is stuck in my head thanks to Ozzie. Its been playing, its seems, on repeat all weekend. It was playing when I arrived Saturday and when I left this evening. Something that I did notice that was cool, was as we were packing up tonight, 'Staring at the Sun' and 'Boulevard of Broken' dreams was plying in the hanger, two song that I love. It's strange how music associates itself with events in our lives. I think this is one of those events.
I hope everyone else has had a good weekend, I have to catch up with work so I'll bid you all a good evening...

Shotgun.

Take me away to paradise...

I'm going to write now because I have nothing better to do, apart from several pieces of homework, but I'm just to tired and simply I can't be arsed!
Well today, Friday... Fridays have now become an annoying stain on my week, I have been reduced to staying in with my mother to catch up on homework as I go gliding on Saturdays and Sundays. At this precise moment my mother is curled up on the sofa watching TV with a tall glass of babysham, while I'm sat in my room with greenday playing at an 'unacceptable' level. I am surrounded by paper, folders and general stationary. Propped up in front of me is a sheet of paper listing the history topics I need to research; at this moment I am half way through the list and this is the fourth night I've tried to complete this tedious task.
Every now and again I open up my messenger window only to be disappointed that out of my 112 contacts only 4 are online and 2 are busy! I'm guessing that everyone is out, down the pub, with their mates, or getting laid! So I'm feeling rather neglected, oh well the weekend will be fun and I bloody hope the weather holds cause I need to get into the air, my solo can't come soon enough then I can stop getting up at 7:00am every weekend! Don't get me wrong I absolutely love the gliding school and everyone there, but its paralyzing my social life and I haven't been able to lie in past 8:00 for nearly a month now! Ah well Caz is going to be there maybe we'll get a bit more friendly... (I'm sure Alex will have a comment to make here)

If I think of anything to talk about I'll add it, but now I'm going to flick the TV on and watch a double bill of the Simpsons...

Fading like the stars we wish to be...

Sigh... Well its the end of another tiring day, (placing my empty mug onto my desk) I'm absolutely knakered. I haven't been sleeping properly for ages now and even at the weekends, the time of supposed relaxation, I have to get up at 7:00am to go gliding. Today I lost the ability to hold coherent conversations with people. I even said 'Hello' to Ashleigh when she left the room! I feel like I'm going crazy. I have so much work to do and there doesn't appear to be enough time in the day. I think Microsoft, through the format of msn messenger is sucking away time from our busy lives to feed Bill Gates' time machine. However when I do find time, today for example, I ended up having four frees, but I really can't get my head around the work and find myself doing something menial like playing shit-head! (its a card game for you toffs)
Well I've been at cadets tonight, and not an immensely stimulating evening. We've just been studying for our exams next month. I'm of on the first expedition of the year to the Peak District on the 18th. I'm really looking forward to it, it'll be great getting back on the hills, and a chance for more opportunitys for infamous cadet stories to be revealed or started. On this note the story of Adam, JJ, a sleeping bag and the phrase 'no hands' came up earlier and a few more people unaware of the incident, became slightly more educated/worried about the life and trials of a cadet.

Well I have a headache and need to try and get some sleep, so I will bid you good evening...

It's too late to get high now...

Ahhhh.....(slumping back in my chair)...Well I'm really chilled out, I'm listening to Counting Crows with a beautifully chilled fosters, god bless the 'Amber Nectar'. Today, well its a Tuesday and possible the most boring day of the year (its only been a month). I only had 10 minutes of history this morning and nothing for the rest of the day! So I did what all 17 year olds do and sat on my arse doing sweet F.A. Highlights...Well JJ and Alex had a jif challenge, which was no where as interesting as it should have been, but you do have to love the face pulled after downing 55ml of pure synthetic lemon juice. Its amazing what fun you can have with a plastic lemon! For those confused by the that statement you fill them with water and squirt each other, resulting in hours of childish fun!!!
Lunch time... we went to eco-club again, really just to here Adam's dirty comments about Miss Curr, he really needs to get a girlfriend!.. The four of us then went to the 'Tsunami Appeal Concert' which was quite entertaining, amusing aswell as some good music. During this time Ed and Scott had been downing Golden Syrup, and were both pretty sick looking lol, it's rather quite funny to watch someone on a sugar high though.
Anything else of interest happened to me lately... Nope? I'll stop talking then.

Good evening...