If I found all that I wanted, It would be a beautiful dream...

Well tomorrows Claire's Birthday, I'm not looking forward to it as immensely as I should or have been. Mainly because I barely get to see her on her big day. As her boyfriend I sort of feel like I should be with her to celebrate her birthday, but it won't be the case this time round... It may not even be for a few years. Shes seeing her dad in the morning and coming to school mid-afternoon. So I will see her then, if only briefly. I'll see her after school for an hour or so, enough time to give her my presents I guess. Then I have to leave so she can go out with her mother. I would liked to have stayed there tonight, so I could wake up surprise her and wish her happy birthday. But the plans also been scrapped. Oh well... I'll take her out for her birthday meal, just the two of us, next Tuesday...

I have this history essay in for tomorrow, on the 'problems faced by Henri IV', really can't be arsed to write it. I'm tired, grouchy and just want to be somewhere else. Claire was really upset this morning, and it was all my fault, cause I'm tired and moody I don't talk and am short and snappy. It killed me to see her crying over me! No one has ever cried over me. All I want at the moment is just to spend a whole day and night with Claire, I haven't for weeks and weeks. Its what she changed her hours for apparently but I haven't spent a Saturday with her since... I honestly can't remember when.

Right I'm gona finish this later... hopefully I'll write something slightly more entertaining or just a bit more upbeat.
(19:13)

I'm sorry to carry on but I've just heard some bad news from mum over dinner, so my mood hasn't been helped by any stretch.
(20:00)

I'm bored! I need to get away from everything, I specially need to get away from school. I've asked Marc if he wants to come away with me next month, I hope we can get it sorted soon, I need something to take my mind of everything.
(22:07)

I'm wrapping Claires presents, I'm feeling a little better now. I'm tired though. I also haven't finished my essay, so I'm going to have to lie some more.
(00:02)

Well I've finished Claire's presents now, and I'm shattered I need to get to bed. Still haven't finished my essay, and I'm not attempting it now! I feel quite ill actually. I haven't got a clue what tomorrow will be like, I hope its ok. Night all...
(00:55)