You made me cry...

Free falling from a stage...

Hmmm, well I'm feeling some what more relaxed and a bit more upbeat. Kristy just left after popping over for an impromptu film viewing. We watched 'Lucky Number Sleven' which neither of us had seen and its defiantly worth a watch. It was nice to chill out with someone and be distracted from all the crap that's been floating around, the time seemed to fly by. Sadly though Gilly was picked up by her new owners and whisked away, I'll miss her but I'm sure its for the best.

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You choked down all your anger...

I’m sitting on my bed, and have been for most of the day. Occasionally moving to get food or hot drinks. I am surrounded by Bank letters university paperwork, opened envelopes and all other various forms of paperwork. From my small laptop speakers The Goo Goo Dolls come pouring out to fill my ears with powerful lyrics. Today has been one of the worst days I’ve had for a while, a real downer. On a positive note I have sorted several bits of very important financial stuff to do with university and my accommodation, and brought most of my books for my course. Most people would see this as exciting however I’m just filled with a sense of dread and fear. There are points in the day when I get excited about uni life, meeting new people and having fun but then the whole realty that I’m embarking on a 3 year course that I am completely unsure is right for me. I found myself today looking and different uni's and courses and getting excited about them, only to be brought back down to earth with the heavy knowledge 'I’ve already made my decision'. I guess I’ll just have to see how it goes, there's no backing out even if I wanted too.
The second thing that has severely hampered this surprise day of is the fact that is over 24 hours since I last heard from my girlfriend. There is no reason that she can't get hold of me and the excuse 'I have no signal' is not a valid one. I'm am sure there is a phone she could use failing that she could borrow someone else’s, If I’m at work and don't communicate with her for a day I get it in the neck so receiving about 5 messages in a week just doesn't make me feel great. Especially when one of the guys she is away with is her ex boyfriend, great hey!?

Well I’m going to try and find someone that can make me smile, but I fear those people are unavailable at the moment.

'Iris'...

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Wonder where these dreams go...

Kristys part was last night. Here are some pics.

We're cool!

Boy Band??

Nice hat Sim

Oh please land on your drunken head Marc!

Hey cock head!

Pucker up boys!

Spectators

The summer sun shines.

Great laugh, Thanks Kristy.

Cause you know that I can...

Results day was yesterday. It was strange, me and Claire left Thorpe to pick them up and having been at work all week had given me little time to think or worry about them. By the time we were queuing up for them I’ll have to tell you I was pretty nervous. Not from fear of not getting my grades, but just not knowing what was going to happen next. However after opening that 'dreaded' envelope and reveling my grades, a grin spread over my face, of relief and satisfaction more than anything else. I managed to pull off a B in chemistry which was good, a C in History which if I’m honest I was a little disappointed with and a C in Physics which at the start of the year I was heading for an E in. Dropping maths was obviously beneficial.
So I have been accepted to Sheffield as a Chemistry student for 3 years, blimey. I've now got four weeks for that information to sink in and to get my life sorted before I have to go. Claire also got a B in Chemistry and an A in textiles, so she has finished three years of sixth form with 2 A's and 4 B's, Bitch. She is also going to Sheffield along with Sadie and Gaby, hopefully we'll see each others friendly faces once in a while.
There was no sense of sadness on results day, other than from the ones who missed out on the grade they needed. I think everyone had done with their goodbyes in the last days of school and at the leaving party. So it was just a formality, but still nice to see 'old' faces.
This summer has flown buy, the past 8 weeks are just a blur, and now with only 4 weeks remaining crammed full of activity it doesn’t appear that things are going to be slowing down for a while.

I'll miss this place...

The irony of crime.

IP31 1E...

Do you want to see the world…

This is nice, I’ve just slipped of my shoes and climbed into my sleeping bag. For the first night here I think I'm sleeping alone, no Kristy, Marc or Claire, no DVD’s or sexually orientated conversations to distract me from sleep. I’m listening to Sim’s copy of The Kooks and sitting with my laptop as the only source of light, I can here the kids making noise across the field but I'm “officially of duty” so I’ll let Tim deal with it. I’m feeling really chilled out, after a couple of beers and a fine performance by me in a civilised game of scrabble. Me and Claire after work are heading to Wales for a few days to get away, I’m really looking forward to it.

Night guys.