And all I seem to feel...

Hey... Well I should be in bed I'm really tired. but I know as soon as my head hits the pillow instead of falling asleep quickly and quietly, my head will fill with all the thoughts I've subdued through the day and my body will suddenly become miraculous energetic. I don't no whats up with me lately... I think its because I'm tired I feel like this... but I never used to feel like this when became tired. I feel really low and everything that shouldn't hurt me does, and my tolerance for anything falls to rock bottom and my jealousy of everything shoots through the roof. I want someone here to hug, but I want to be on my own and sulk like a little kid. Even yesterday after an amazing weekend, I got a few minutes just for my mind to be with itself and all these feelings returned, a deep, slow anger rising up from the depths of no-where, just to feel frustrated that this very second of my existance not quite everything is as I want it...

What the hell am I writing! I'm so tired I can't even remember what I've written, I just want some one to tell me how much I mean to them and who I cant feel angry or jealous about and just for them to be with me as I fall asleep...