Dream catch me when I fall..

So... it's 1.28 in the morning... I feel 17 again... "foraging for food"...
Three years ago i finished my A levels, had an awesome summer, packed up, then shipped out to Sheffield... This month saw me finish my degree and next month will see me graduate! Where is time going, and what am i doing with my life. This summer will be the shortest for years and before i know it i'll be holding my nose and jumping into the deep end.
Am i ready for another more intensive forth year, yes I'll have a few extra pounds in the bank, but will i be tied to my desk, working my arse of for yet another year, i fear that could be the case. I'm jealous of people, Will finishing up for the summer with big plans for year of traveling, Emma starting out at uni, finding a boyfriend, being a first year, and Marc waiting for the 'go' from the RAF.
I really don't know what i want, i thought i had a plan, i said three years then i was getting a one way ticket to New Zealand, now it another year then i'll get the ticket... will i ever? I'm loving the places I've been to so far, Norway, Vienna, Sardinia, Turin and with more places to add to the list. I guess it's just a case of sitting down and working it out, lets not just wait to see what happens... I'm going to use 'fuck it, lets see what happens' a bit more from now on i think...